crying from the inside

i wanna cry. i just feel like it now...

reasons:
i am tired
i am overwhelmed with life issues . all at the same time
i am anxious of knowing the answers
i am losing my patience waiting for the replies
i start doubting myself
i am empty on the inside
i am insecured
i am not who i am now
i promised someone who loves me from above that i'll stop missing somebody on earth

i miss him.
his shi-llarious-ness. his stupidness. his crazyness. his magic.
... for one last time ...

never take NO?

i have this book with the title printed big on its red cover sitting right in front of my lappie since this morning! it's a second-hand book that i bought from an english bookstore in shibuya a month ago. i am not here to tell about the book, but why i have it sitting on my working table? i needed it simply because i think the title helps to keep my chin up in the midst of fighting with life issues. it may sound silly but i hope it helps :P in a way, or so...